hello hello
in an effort to provide purpose to my life where i feel a bit nothing-y, im gonna start a blog. i need low commitment, low risk for shame and disappointment if i fail, but raging dopamine release for every 'publish' link clicked.
at this time my days consist of going to work, rushing back home (7 minute commute), rush into pajamas as if my life depended on it, feed my cats with an inappropriate sense of urgency, and immediately sink into the couch and watch youtube until bedtime. i don't know why it feels like a race against time to get home to do nothing but i've only recently become aware of it and haven't tackled unraveling the mysteries of it. i digress. the point being i need to occupy myself with something easy~ in an attempt to desperately develop a less soul sucking routine.
in my usual untreated adhd fashion, i absolutely purchased a brand new macbook air for this new assignment and it took all of 5 minutes to take the plunge. we hope and pray that the shackles of this financial burden will force my hand and tug at my guilt strings enough to ensure daily and habitual use.
so The Plan. i like taking photos but i don't leave my apartment pretty much ever (guess what i bought that nice camera for?) i'll try to get out there and do stuff with it and post that here. maybe journal. talk about books im reading, movies i watched. exercise my brain in a way i haven't since 5th grade. in the end i will emerge from the caccoon of my 386 sq ft apt a beautiful and well rounded, interesting and independent and confident woman. we're all very excited about it.